Faith in "us"

Fascinated by the illusion of you and I being together forever. Arguments steady arising, yet I for some reason can't see past the love I have for you.
Clearly I'm blind for only a blind person would stay and put up with the bullshit from a demon such as yourself. Yeah that's it I'm blind, or am I I'm so confused I wanna scream. You know what, maybe I stay because deep down inside I know the good out weighs the bad. Whatever it is i can't leave, trust me I've tried if I could I would. Because sometimes, just sometimes you drive me to the "I wanna hide your body where no one will ever find it" mode. But of course who does that hurt, no one but, yeah you said it "me" everything hurts me but you act like you don't see that. You act like I'm made of stone, you act like I don't have feelings like the shit you do will bounce off of me. Well you know what I'm not fucking superman BITCH... wait I didn't mean that, I didn't mean to call you out of your name I LOVE YOU. it's just sometimes, just sometimes I don't know what to do, sometimes I feel like I'm at this alone. Everyday I look for some reason to stay and everyday I receive it, but sometimes just sometimes I doubt my signs. Are you the "one" is there a one... I feel like this is everything I've been waiting for a "us," then other times I feel like it's a mistake. You always say you don't need me, "I was fine before you and will continue to be after you". Let me just say this, that hurts me personally I was fine before you as well, but even with our ups and downs I feel like I'm better with you and now I can't see me without you, I can't pitcure it ever not being an "us". My heart is never confused I come back because beyond the drama I see a bright future, a future that consist of "us". It takes two to play this game and let me tell you what a wise friend said "there are no rules to this game called love." I HAVE FAITH IN "US" CAN YOU SAY THE SAME....

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