Are we done boo?

When you find yourself asking "is this it, is this the moment when we call it a quits are we done have we reached the end of the road". Then you know the stress level has hit maximum on not only you, but your partner as well. See now the problem with that is it's almost like it becomes a game, you begin to wonder which one of you is going to say it out loud. I mean isn't that what each and every individual in a struggling relationship really waits for, that confirmation that things are DONE...OVER!!! But see I believe that the reason people wait for it from the other rather then be bold and say it themselves, is because deep down we all doubt the heart. I mean seriously think about it we all say "trust your heart" but can we really trust it with choice of this magnitude. Stop and think for a second, for most of us when we get made the heart says "fuck them" but once we calm down that same heart, towards that same person says "I love them". I don't know about yours but my heart is unstable, I trust it but at the same time I trust the information I have gathered and the possiblity of human error more. I'm sure the confusion of what I said has had ample amount of time to set in, so let me put things like this... When you get to that point of "is this it, are we ready to give up everything we have built" look back to the beginning think about the love you once felt, and if things are blurry ask yourself is the future more clear with or without that person. Nothing comes easy, love and relationships damn sure don't come easy... But in the end can either of you truly say it's not worth it. LOVE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT!!! So do what you have to do to make the best of it.

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Blessings from above

Love without a test is not love at all, it's a temporary illusion. It is a combination of the eyes and the body giving the heart what it believes it wants. If you yourself are in one if those relationships that has gone untested, my honest opinion is... That's a fantasy so ummm "wake the hell up." Fantasy land relationships have no place in reality, you know real people world. That place we call Earth where stuff goes wrong left and right, where women and men cheat because they can. The place where nothing in life not even your next breath is guaranteed. This place we call home is reality, and in reality no real relationship goes untested. It's up to those involved in that relationship to come out on top, it's up to them to weigh their options. For each individual to attempt to see the greater good in the other, no one is perfect so think before you judge someone and their wrong doings. IS IT WORTH IT?Charish what you have, cause if they say they love you as much as you say you do them, see it as a blessing from above.

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Here we go again

My anger is peaking, everynight I attempt to head into a deep sleep hoping tomorrow I will wake up and not worry about the problems of the previous day. Yet everyday I am wrong, I wake up and the day starts right. Hugs and kisses are plenty, but for some reason lately everyday there is one if not five things that grasp my attention and turn me in the direction of angry. It's like the "Incredible Hulk" effect... Slowly but surely little things continue to happen and I suppress the anger, but eventually in my head i just get fed up. The Pride level is at a all time high, and seriously I can't take it the wall was fine at first but now it's getting played out. Two years in and still the drama, the need to be in control, the self domination it all kills me. I'm a very aggressive individual and with her I choose not to be. I listen to the constant under the breathe mumbles of bullshit but I let it slide, but for how long. How long before I yell back and show my built up anger, how long before I make her cry, how long. I guess you could say for as long as it takes for me to stop loving her. For I have found ones anger needs to be channeled into ways other than rage. You don't want to hurt the ones you love physically nor with your words. So until I or rather you are calm enough to speak, just don't say anything sometimes no action is the best action.


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