My anger is peaking, everynight I attempt to head into a deep sleep hoping tomorrow I will wake up and not worry about the problems of the previous day. Yet everyday I am wrong, I wake up and the day starts right. Hugs and kisses are plenty, but for some reason lately everyday there is one if not five things that grasp my attention and turn me in the direction of angry. It's like the "Incredible Hulk" effect... Slowly but surely little things continue to happen and I suppress the anger, but eventually in my head i just get fed up. The Pride level is at a all time high, and seriously I can't take it the wall was fine at first but now it's getting played out. Two years in and still the drama, the need to be in control, the self domination it all kills me. I'm a very aggressive individual and with her I choose not to be. I listen to the constant under the breathe mumbles of bullshit but I let it slide, but for how long. How long before I yell back and show my built up anger, how long before I make her cry, how long. I guess you could say for as long as it takes for me to stop loving her. For I have found ones anger needs to be channeled into ways other than rage. You don't want to hurt the ones you love physically nor with your words. So until I or rather you are calm enough to speak, just don't say anything sometimes no action is the best action.
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